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i suppose this should be a journal entry.
i am going to a friend's house for a house party. I expect there will be a lot of booze to drown my agony. The Frustration.

AND ...

i feel really stupid nowadays. i forget a lot of things. my state of mind is degrading. i cant concentrate. i make stupid mistakes and i speak very rapidly. i dont really like my life right now.



symptoms are so deep. something here's so wrong. nothing is complete. nowhere to belong. the symptoms are so deep, i think i'd better stay here on my own..

Happy New Year, i guess..

I'm downright sick of girls who keep saying stuff like "Edward Cullen is soooo hot!" and "I wish Edward was real.
I am also disgusted to hear of a 'Twilight fan band' who called Stephenie Meyer the 'Queen of Vampires' in their lyrics when that title deserves to be given to Anne Rice who actually writes proper vampire stories and not sappy romance novels which make teenage girls swoon.

i am overwhelmed by the realization that we live in a world where on one end, people own mansions, luxurious cars, Plasma TVs, computers and blackberries and electric guitars and computerized what-not, while not very far away, a man's entire livelihood is centered around a wooden pushcart and selling fried rice to passersby on the street.

it's amazing.

jambret....
gue musti bayar semahal ituuu...
hopefully i won't get into trouble.... >.<

Each of us may think we know exactly what we need to make us happy. what will be good for us. what will ensure we have our happy ending. However, life rarely works out in the way we expect. And that our happy ending may have all sorts of unexpected twists and turns, be shaped in all unexpected ways.

And our own personal paradise may be someone else's version of hell. Or indeed vice versa...




oh gosh... i don't know what just struck me in...
whether it's ol ghost, or just i'm wanting so badly to go back to the old times of brits boybands.
i'm so crazy listening over to 5ive, 911, the moffats, kavana. i never really kind of hansons, but then they're alright.
i remember those times i was head over heels over lee missen from code red, i still have their cd for old time sakes, backstreet boys, boyzone, joey mcintyre.
those years it was their year, mtv would only played these same songs over and over again.
i grew up listening to these songs, i just don't understand why, and i can't remember when and why, i listen to less and less english songs, then one day i just don't know anything. Instead, i listen to asian songs more and more, then one day i knew a lot about it.
i wish i could be back in those years again where boyband still rule.
the bravo all stars period.
i remember i could stay in front of the tv playing mtv the whole day and never get sick of it,
gosh gosh gosh... a bit cheeky, but i wonder where are they now...

for the sake of old times, these are the people that rule the world those old time years
i present you...

bravo all star - let the music heal your soul


look at aaron carter, he was still friggin' cute... but now... errr no comment...

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